August 2008
August 31, 2008
No vomit today!!! Woohooo for the Warrior Princess!!!! We got new pictures up...Savvy has grown so much it is such a miracle!! The family of our donor angel has given us these amazing memories...we thank you.
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Our First "Official" Haircut....The Dora the Explorer Look!
A Kiss from Antonio
It was hard to catch her for the picture for she was running around...but I had to take a picture for my friend, Sheri....Antonio is always in our hearts and in our nightly prayers.
About to go into the bay after her GI appt...yup...wearing a dress and her English purse
She loved the purse that Bethany and Eloise sent her...she did not even put it down to go play in the water.
August 30, 2008
"Party til You Puke!"...that was Savvy's motto last night...we all had a great time last night at Riley's house but then Savvy vomited again...poor thing...this time we think it was an allergic reaction because of how she vomited but either way it wasn't fun for her...but true to the Warrior Princess style...she has bounced back today and acts as if nothing happened...just another day to enjoy.
So, I had to share the vomit story in order to share the funny morning story. We had a little puke on us....okay...A LOT and on the couch, etc, etc, so Riley's mom's being super sweet gave me some clothes to change into since I was drenched with vomit and of course a set of PJ's for Savvy that belong to Riley so we could change her and put her to sleep when we arrived home. Jen made a comment about how BOYish the PJ's were...nothing girly about them...well...little did she know....
My child woke up with what we believe was a case of testosterone overdose! She normally gives you a smile in hug in the morning to get out of her crib but this morning she looked at me and threw herself back on the mattress grumbling the whole time! Okay...then she gets her meds and diaper changed...she is simply making her complaints known very clearly and running around like a wild child raised by wolves...she gets her breakfast and her tired Mami picks out an outfit for her to wear...as soon as the pink little shorts and butterfly shirt were on we got a smile and my sweet princesa was back! Okay...so some people may think that she was starving since her tummy was obviously empty before she fell asleep due to the vomit and that is why she was grumpy but I think the overdose in testosterone theory makes more sense...my princesa was craving PINK! So no more boy PJ's for her!!!
Today...I know it is still early but no vomit...Woohoo for the Warrior Princess! She has labs on Tuesday and stool samples to drop off and then she is going to have an amazing day with her Super Papi as Mami frets and goes off to school. We did not have a chance to download pics last night but I hope to get to them tonight!!!
August 29, 2008
I am a member of the St. Vincent de Paul society at church and this morning was a little different since we had a meeting. Savvy an "honorary" member went to the meeting with me and was so amazingly good. I am so very spoiled to have her as my daughter...when we left the meeting I just had to compliment her so much for being such a well behaved little girl...okay...so now I am just bragging! Could not help myself for she was a REALLY good girl!
We heard back from CHOP and all of Savvy's doctors are on the same page...they think it is probably reflux too that is causing the vomiting but if the Prevacid does not work then we will go for an imaging study at CHOP to look at the scar tissue...for now our prescription is filled and we are taking the least invasive route possible...and her Prograf was adjusted to get her TAC level down.
No reflux, vomiting or even liver disease is going to stop this child from eating...next time we go to a drs appointment I have to ask to have her checked for a tape worm! She is eating her "Teedio" or Cheerios in the "non-toddler" world wearing her many jewels...she literally woke up from her nap requesting her necklace and "Teedios"...so cute!
I will have Robert download pictures today...I have a bunch I want to share...she is yummylicious!!! Okay...I am bragging again!
Aiden
Please continue to keep Aiden and his family in your prayers and positive thoughts...here is Lisa's journal...
http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/aiden/:
"He will fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with happy shouting." Job 8:21
Friday morning, and we slept in till 8:00 this morning. ALL of us. This small miracle was only possible because yesterday Aiden had his port de-accessed! That means we took the exterior line from his chest and now he has just the port under his skin. No beeping machines and uncomfortable IV'S at night!
WITH OUT GETTING INTO DETAILS.. cause frankly I am spent and don't want to relive it again, it was not a good experience. He fainted, and it was yucky. moving on...
So our pediatrician and I together decided it was time for us to just stop the nightly IV fluids. It is shocking that it didn't work. I clearly am not smart enough to wrap my brain around the complexity of this. I do know that with talking to his doctor yesterday, one thing is for sure, we are all on the exact same page, with the same goals, and the same understanding of the importance of quality of life. It is one of those things Joey and I just exhale and feel so relieved over, is this amazing set of doctors we have.
I hate talking about this all. I think it feels so heavy and negative. I just deleted 3 paragraphs I had written...I think instead, I just would rather say how proud I am of aiden. I am so proud of him.
Sometimes I look at Aiden and I wonder how he actually does this all. How he can find so much laughter and joy and have such a resiliant heart. I know that Joey and I DO have a part in that, I don't pretend to say that it isn't something we haven't worked on consiously since he was born. Live for today, focus on our gifts. But there is a supernatural aspect to Aiden with his peace and understanding.
John 14:18
"I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you."
I hope God comes to him and comforts him. I hope that in his dreams he has a special peace and happiness. I love Aiden so much and can't wait to see him better.
I know the IV fluids didn't work until after the crisis, but we will still have our miracle and healing! I just know it.
Full of HOPE and excited for our miracle...
Lisa
Please Read and Vote
Hello Everyone,
My name is Melissa Boyett and I need your help. I have a project that I have submitted and I need you to vote for it, please! American Express (the credit card company) has a contest every year to award $1.5 million to an organization or project. Once you submit your idea for your project there is a process of voting and nominating the project, to get it down to the top 25 then top 5 and so on.
My project is called “Second Chances”: Mobile Organ Donation Awareness. It basically targets high school and college students, to educate them, answer any questions they may have and make them aware that only 35 percent of licensed drivers and ID card holders have committed themselves to donation by registering to be donors through their state registry or motor vehicle department - leaving the donor shortage a leading public health crisis!
This project will basically be mobile organ donation awareness program. We will go college by college and school by school having things such as talk and fundraisers and like I said educating people about this subject that is so close to my heart! Another thing that this project will do is make is easy and accessible for people to get into the on line organ donor registry. As of right now the only way to become an organ donor in the state of Florida (and each state has different laws) is to say “yes” when they ask you if you want to be an organ donor at the DMV after you stand through long lines to get a license or anything of that nature. So, we believe that with this knowledge and accessibility for people (especially students) that it would increase number tremendously! We have one week to nominate this project and get it into the finals! This money could go a long way and make such a difference is so many lives!
So, this is where I need your help! I have found a way that could potentially make people aware of Organ Donation around the country, and make it a common house hold conversation. American Express (the credit card company) has a contest every year to award $1.5 million to an organization or project. Once you submit your idea for your project there is a process of voting and nominating the project, to get it down to the top 25 then top 5 and so on.
All you need to do is, go to the link below and log in as a “guest” then you will be able to nominate the project. We have just ONE week! The deadline is September 1st! Our goal is 5,000 nominations! With your help I believe we can do it! Forward this to all your friends and family! (:
http://www.membersproject.com/project/view/UZHKO0
Also, if you have a moment and would like to share your thoughts about this project please post your positive comments at:
http://community.membersproject.com/topic/Education-Outreach/Project-Quotsecond-Chancesquot/14000000742&#msg14000003554
This is a project very dear to my heart and a legacy that I want to leave behind someday. Some of you may know me and my story quite well, but for those of you who do not I would like to briefly share with you a little about my life and then ask for your help again.
Eighteen years ago I was born with a genetic disease called Cystic Fibrosis this disease made it very hard for me to breath, absorb foods, it caused diabetes and osteoporosis among other things.. I was constantly in and out of the hospital with infections and one surgery after another. By the time I was 11 years old. I could no longer go to school like a normal child; I was being pushed in a wheel chair by my family and friends, and needing oxygen because I just couldn’t breath! I was placed on a waiting list to receive a double lung transplant. (My “Second Chance” at Life) After, waiting about two and a half years I finally got the call and I received new lungs! I FINALLY knew what it felt like to breath. It was a whole new life for me. I went back to school, got a job, did cheerleading etc. But it wasn’t long, six months later I got deathly sick! It was cancer! Cancer in both my new lungs! I fought it with Chemo and other treatments for about a year. But by the time it had gone away, rejection had set in to my lungs. Yet again I was no longer able to breath. No more school, back in a wheelchair, back on oxygen and back looking for another set of lungs. Just over one year one the transplant waiting list I received a second double lung transplant! Praise God!
At this time I am currently fighting the rejection again and it has been over two wonderful years since my second transplant! I was able to Graduate High School and I am starting Community College this week! :) Unfortunately at this time there seems that there are no real options for me except to live out the time that I have left to the fullest and to the glory of God! I am currently, back on oxygen and in a wheelchair (at times). But, like I always say “I just take it one step at a time, and I am thankful for each one!”
Although, I am still here today, I have many friends that are no longer with us. Children and teens that had illnesses such as Cystic Fibrosis that did not get there “Second Chance”. Just a little statistic for you, 18 people die everyday waiting on transplants. 6,411 Americans - one every 90 minutes – died in 2007 while on the transplant list. Also, my younger brother, who is doing quite well right now, was also born with Cystic Fibrosis.
I feel that God is calling me to help others in similar situations to my own, and that I am still here for a reason! I want to help get the word out there about Organ Donation! If I could help one person get a “Second Chance” and make sure that one less family has to bury there loved one. I would feel then, like, it was all worth while and I have done what I was meant to do.
Here is the link to vote for this project one more time…
http://www.membersproject.com/project/view/UZHKO0
For your comments:
Again, thank you so much! I will keep you informed of how we do.
If you have any questions please feel free to call me: (904) 422-5415 or E-Mail: jasmine10_4@yahoo.com
Sincerely,
~Melissa S. Boyett~
August 28, 2008
We had a very long and wonderful day today! It started off with a ceremony and ended on the beach the way each day should...celebrations and the beach! We headed to see our GI this afternoon (whom we think the world of!)..the nurses were amazed with how big Savvy had gotten for the last time we saw our GI it had been at a different office and the nurses that have followed her were not there. I kept hearing "do you know who that is? That is Savannah!" as she strolled down the hallway to STEP UP (Yes...step up on the scale no longer are we on the baby scale!) on the scale to measure her weight. Yes...strolled in with her new English designer purse sent to her by her friends Bethany and Eloise (Thank You Sam!!).
Before heading to the doctors a packaged arrived from England! It had a purse and bracelet in it for the little Warrior Princess...and as the universe has it - the purse was perfectly matched with the outfit she was wearing!!! So...Savvy strolled in with her little outfit and simply asked for a "Ticker"... she knew she was at the drs and wanted a sticker!
We ran into a mom whom I believe I wrote about ... a long while ago I was in the waiting room for our GI...this was real soon after Savvy received her Gift. There was a mom looking so stressed out with her little boy and a precious little girl in a carrier with an NG tube coming out of her nose...oh ... that NG tube....
She was filling out the initial paperwork and I am not sure why for I usually keep to myself (in waiting rooms...ONLY...Haha) but I walked over and told her that I thought she was in amazing hands no matter the doctor that she was there to see..that we had experience with both and they are intelligent men who are extremely caring and yet straightforward. She seemed relieved and told me about her beautiful little girl being born with Down Syndrome and having to have heart surgery due to congenital defects and her other issues...she told me that she was hurt for she had heard from so many that they were "sorry" and that she felt that her daughter was a gift and not something to be sorry for but some one to cherish...well...today we happen to see this precious little girl in the waiting area our appointments were one after the other...she had her heart surgery and her mom showed me this beautiful Warrior scar on her chest...she is doing so much better! What joy we all had in the hallway looking at these amazing girls!
So in the car Robert and I were talking about how lucky we are....yeah...it does suck that Savannah has to deal with more appointments then a "healthy" kids does but seriously...we are blessed!
So...to make a long story even longer....we believe Savvy has a case of reflux (yeah... a word we can pronounce!) and that is what is causing the vomiting ... tomorrow we head out to the lab to give a stool sample (you know we are all about the poop in this house!) and have it checked out for some disease that has initials and letters that I already forgot and will not worry about it unless she is positive for it...we changed her Pepcid to Prevacid and hopefully her vomiting will calm down after this.
Savvy's Tac levels are high so we have to see what CHOP is going to say about what to do with her immune suppression medication ... and of course we have to go get a "pokey" next week...since the labs are off...we have to have it rechecked....so this is the news with Savannah.....
But what I will remember from today is ... the wonderful ceremony we had this morning...the look on Savvy's face when she saw her new purse...and Savvy running into the St. Petersburg bay clutching her plastic shovels all dressed up with her purse....
August 27, 2008
Already started with the vomit thing this morning.....augh!
August 26, 2008
Vomit...that is what is fashionable in our household...we like to be trendy so we thought we would try out how vomit looks on our clothes...we are hoping that this is a short lived trend! Savvy had an amazing day yesterday playing for hours at the park with our friend, Jerilyn ... it was an awesome day! Today not as awesome from her perspective I imagine. We started our day with Dr. Wonderful...we had an appointment due to the constant vomit issue that we have going on..and just to throw a little curve ball I thought I had seen blood in her diaper last night when I changed her...but then of course it could be the marinara sauce ... and why would she have blood in her diaper now? So, I kept the diaper and mentioned it to Robert but did not freak out...Yup..we went to visit Dr. Wonderful with presents this morning...the smelly kind! You should see what we are planning for the holiday season! So after visiting with Dr. Wonderful and learning that there probably was blood in her diaper and some reasons that may explain it, Savvy and I headed to the park...just about the time I was pulling into the house after leaving the park to put Savvy down for a nap we learned that we had to head out and get bloodwork done on her ... so off we go....Savvy did great!
Our fabulous, Julie took her blood and Savvy got her Dora stickers...I just love that we see Julie every time...she has a great touch! ....Not a tear was shed as usual but this time she was even more amazing! Who ever Savvy sits on holds her arm down and keeps gauze pressed down on her arm til she stops bleeding for she is very sensitive to bandaids and we avoid them...today, it was my turn to hold her so when I stopped putting pressure on her arm with the gauze our little Warrior Princess grabbed and did it herself!
We are going to see our local GI on Thursday after the blood results return...we should know more then. So, I am thinking she had such a good day yesterday and no vomiting and we have not vomited today!! WOOOHOOO!!! But then.....this evening we heard the all too familiar sound and her dinner was on her pretty little dress...combined with her medication and a look of disgust from our Savvy....booger!
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Jen,
I was going to send you a private email to respond to your guestbook entry but I thought that I should simply thank you in a public forum for that is where the conversation started. I know that you are an amazing woman and an amazing mother whom I respect dearly and I thank you for I appreciate your response. I know that many people feel exactly as you do but you trust our friendship enough to openly say it...that is what makes our friendship so beautiful. I only have 2 lines to respond to guestbook entries and did not feel it just to leave at ... "It is a good documentary and I recommend it highly".
I believe that in this amazing nation of ours all individuals should be treated fairly and just and that discrimination should be fought against and that includes discrimination against individuals that are homosexual. I thought about it all day and I can not recall an occasion that I have ever asked anyone what their sexual orientation was...sometimes it is obvious to me .. sometimes not..but I really do not care...simply because it makes no difference in my opinion of the person. I can not rationalize condemning someone due to the color of their skin anymore then I can rationalize condemning them for their sexual orientation. Our history is one of condemnation for both..and this is something that I will never understand. That is my belief system.
I recommended the movie that I did for it puts into context a lot of things that I believe and whether or not you agree with them I think it is so important to continue to keep an open dialog and learn from each other...for when we stop questioning, we stop growing.
I have a deep respect for the religious beliefs of others whether or not they coincide with my own for I believe that we are all loved by God...whether God is the name you chose to place on the higher power or not. I believe that the Bible is the holy scripture but to take it at face value or "100% truth" without question as you have asked me to do is to follow the truth of one faith only...this is what divides so many faiths and why we have many different religions even within Christianity. Our religions interpret the holy scripture and the different interpretations is why there are so many sects..and that is within the New Testament alone. There are many wonderful religions that are not Christian based that follow the same teachings of love....I think we have more in common with each other then not.
I am not responding to argue this point but simply to question why it is that we can justify the "hate" of one's sexual orientation. We have used the name of God to justify violence and hatred throughout the centuries...Hate is a powerful word with lots of emotions and many people do "hate" homosexuality...why? I do agree with you that God does not "hate" the person..for I believe that "hate" is a human attribute that God does not share..but we can justify attributing this to God because of the words in the Bible which says it is an abomination?
You stated, "There is no changing the Bible or the meaning of the verses in the Bible. On this topic - the Bible clearly defines marriage as between a man and a woman - period." The Bible clearly describes many things that as a society are no longer applicable such as in:
• DEUTERONOMY 22:13-21
13If any man take a wife, and go in unto her, and hate her,
14And give occasions of speech against her, and bring up an evil name upon her, and say, I took this woman, and when I came to her, I found her not a maid:
15Then shall the father of the damsel, and her mother, take and bring forth the tokens of the damsel's virginity unto the elders of the city in the gate:
16And the damsel's father shall say unto the elders, I gave my daughter unto this man to wife, and he hateth her;
17And, lo, he hath given occasions of speech against her, saying, I found not thy daughter a maid; and yet these are the tokens of my daughter's virginity. And they shall spread the cloth before the elders of the city.
18And the elders of that city shall take that man and chastise him;
19And they shall amerce him in an hundred shekels of silver, and give them unto the father of the damsel, because he hath brought up an evil name upon a virgin of Israel: and she shall be his wife; he may not put her away all his days.
20But if this thing be true, and the tokens of virginity be not found for the damsel:
21Then they shall bring out the damsel to the door of her father's house, and the men of her city shall stone her with stones that she die: because she hath wrought folly in Israel, to play the whore in her father's house: so shalt thou put evil away from among you.
Isn't death for not being a virgin a little extreme?
• LEVITICUS 18:19
19Also thou shalt not approach unto a woman to uncover her nakedness, as long as she is put apart for her uncleanness.
The Bible forbids a married couple from having sexual intercourse during a woman’s period.
Well if taken literally then eating shrimp is an abomination too - I confess shrimp cocktail is my favorite appetizer. There are many passages that can be used in so many ways in the Bible but that I recommended the movie not to question anyone's faith nor to attack anyone but simply to ask that people think before attacking someone's sexual orientation...at least start the dialog...love not hate...that is what I believe we are here to do.
With my deepest respect,
Ana
August 24, 2008
The vomit continues...sweet thing woke up from her nap yesterday with puke all over...but again after getting cleaned up she bounced back from it...a Warrior Princess I tell ya! So we decided to get out of the house..Super Papi needed a haircut so we decided it was time for Savvy's first "official" hair cut. Oh my goodness she could not have been any better! She was not thrilled as you will see when the pictures are downloaded but she sat on her Papi's lap with a pout on her face and did not move...she got her bangs cut and looks JUST like Dora the Explorer!
On a side note we stayed up and watched some movies last night...woohooo..a Netflix night! Spiderman 3...not bad..not great...pretty predictable...I played a word game on the computer during it (Thanks Karen for getting me addicted to it!! Scramble on Facebook....ADDICTING!) but then we put on a second movie...I so highly recommend it. The movie was featured at Sundance a documentary by Daniel Karslake - "For The Bible Tells Me So".
I do not normally discuss what many may consider to my "political" views for I do not think that this is the forum for it. Although, I do discuss my passion for organ donation which may considered to be a political view...but this is the journal that I use to share my thoughts and feelings and in order to be true to myself I simply need to discuss this...for I do believe in the saying that "evil spreads when good people do nothing".
This movie is a documentary about how conservative Christian groups have used holy scripture to deny the basic human rights of gay and lesbians. I do not see this as a political view for human rights is simply that our right to love and be loved and I have never and will never understand how we can ever deny anyone that right. As Archbishop Desmond Tutu says so eloquently - I can no more believe that God could condemn because one chose to be black rather then white...I can no more believe that God would condemn because one chose to be a woman rather than a man...I can no more believe that God would condemn because on chose to be homosexual rather than heterosexual.
I am keenly aware that many do not share my viewpoints and that simply saddens me for I can not imagine how anyone can justify/rationalize discriminating against anyone based on their sexual identity any more then I can justify/rationalize someone discriminating against my sweet Savvy because she is part Hispanic...and will this happen...yeah...I know it will....
If you agree with my viewpoints on basic human rights for all...I recommend this movie..if you do not agree with them...I recommend this movie..."For The Bible Tells Me So".
Love and prayers to all! XOXO!
August 23, 2008
I am not feeling to well this morning...woke up feeling pretty yucky...yeah I will self diagnose with yucky disease. One thing that does help cure yucky disease and recommended by all of the top doctors is Savannah! Savvy being Savvy! Super Papi prepared breakfast for her ... (sorry Sarah but we are back to the blueberry waffles) and told Savvy is was time to eat. It is a rule in our house that when you go take a nap and/or go eat your meals you have to take your jewels off (being a grown up and getting to make up rules is great! Ahhh...the POWER!). EVERYONE has to follow this rule...all wings, all jewels, all purses, all bracelets are off...yes EVEN Super Papi is not allowed to wear his wings at meals and naptime!
Well, normally Savvy has no problems in taking off her beads but this morning she almost seemed torn. Am I hungry or is it more important to be fashionable????? Oh...the dilemmas of a diva! She took off her beads .. I mean jewels and then would put them back on...it was funny to see her trying to make up her mind...(not that she had much of a chose for breakfast was going to happen without the jewels). So thank goodness I have the cure for yucky disease in my own home!!! and thank goodness my little Warrior Princess giggles when you kiss her wearing a mask...she thinks it is hysterical!
August 22, 2008
WOW! Apparently our little Warrior Princess is advanced for her age..yup...she thinks she is Two! She threw a tantrum that had it been witnessed by the two year olds of the world...they would have stood up in their potty training pants and cheered with pride! It was one with the feet going and the boogies running...no sprinting down the nose...yup...this is what I woke up to...in STEREO since the baby monitor was on and in my ear. She was not pleased...not sure what she was not pleased with but she was obviously not pleased! Super Papi let it ride for he was not about to cave...thank goodness we are a two person team for I think I would have caved this morning...I had not even had my liquid gold yet. So...I am thinking...I can survive the whole liver thing but can I survive the "terrible two's?"
It is funny to watch her now...obviously her fit is done and she is playing (otherwise I would not be typing anything other then "HELP ME" over and over)...she is so inquisitive...she rarely sits down for she wants to be in everything...but right now she is sitting by the window by our door just staring outside and watching the rain come down...she looks like an angel...I know this peaceful moment won't last long but it gives me time to reflect...reflect on the miracle I witness on a daily basis. She is amazing. She makes me laugh. She makes me worry. She makes me wander. She makes me wish I had gotten more sleep...and she makes me understand what true beauty and love truly is...
and now I am off for the peaceful moment in my house has left...
August 21, 2008
Errrr...the vomit is back...and so are the boogies...I hesitated in sharing the fact that she had not vomited since Monday...but I angered the Joo Joo Gods and shared it anyways...so the sky went dark and the vomit returned! Actually, the sky did go dark...we were packed and ready to head to the beach and of course the rain came our way so I decided to get on the highway and go to the mall and do some window shopping...I was not feeling like keeping my little Warrior Princess cooped up in the house...so off to the land of magical words..."sale" and "clearance" and magical foods in the form of cinnamon sugar pretzels and the Golden Store of Liquid Gold...Starbucks! But before we reached this magnificent world I heard the all to familiar sound .... now I have to decide whether to turn around and head home or continue on...I carried on thinking if something happens we are actually closer to Dr. Wonderful over here...my little Warrior Princess was exhausted after throwing up and fell asleep in her carseat so here I go shaking her to make sure she was still breathing...she must have thought that she had an insane Mami for she was so tired she simply kept her eyes closed and smiled!
We got to the mall and I cleaned her up...she was excited because she got to sit in one of those car strollers you can "drive"...she loved it! She strolled up and down the mall driving and waving "bye bye" to all of the people. Too cute for words...funny thing was that people would stop and wave back at her...
At times I forget that the whole world does not find organ transplants to be "the norm" ... a super friendly salesperson goes straight up to Savvy in one of the stores and tells her how cute she is (boogies running and all) and reaches down to caress her cheeks... I asked her not to grab Savvy's face for she is immune-suppressed due to her liver transplant (who knows where her hands have been...least of all the cash register) and this super nice salesperson looks at me like I am insane..."did you say a liver transplant?" yeah...I forget sometimes that my "norm" is not everyone elses norm...so I proceeded to explain like I have done thousands of times before and thought ... how cool...my baby is not yellow... you could not tell by looking at her that she has had the tough little life that she has had...all this nice lady saw was a dimpled face little girl who she could not resist....how very cool!
After waiting out the storm in the mall we headed to Super Papi's office ... phew just in the knick of time too since she had A LOT of work to do in the office...she grabbed her pink basket (the Easter Basket Simone sent her is her office basket where she keeps her administrative assistant assignments in) and got to work! Post its had to be arranged and books had to be organized! After a long day at the office we headed home ... it was amazing because tonight I gave my Warrior Princess 2 medications before heading to bed!!!! TWO!!!!!!!!!!!! Count them!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT IS THE LEAST AMOUNT OF MEDICATION THAT SHE HAS EVER HAD...EVER!!! Of course, she gets her Bactrim on Monday, Wed, and Fridays but tonight she had TWOOOOO!!!!!!!! Woohooo for the Warrior Princess!!!!
Team Aiden
http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/aiden/
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008 8:28 PM CDT
song request by Aiden... this song playing always makes me smile... Aiden always says, with a far away look in his eye
"Mommy how can Kermit and Ernie have the sound so much alike. Do you think they are related?"
SO as you guessed, we are still here in the hospital.. I think I am dreaming about somewhere over the rainbow, where all wishes come true .
We are watching him because of his blood pressure and heart rate. The new medicine is called clonidine. they are doing it as a patch on his skin. It should help control the peaks and valleys. It is specific for his adrenal gland and his catacholamine levels. (yes that was english I swear!)
basically it could drop his heart rate.. he could have a hypertensive episode, and all the above are very very bad with our little aiden. so.. to be safe we are here being monitored (tortured).
I wanna go home. Joey has an interview tomorrow. He is applying for a supervisor position with the state. Not a good time for this. I imagine my husband is sitting at home on the couch studying like mad. God bless him. We are having a hard time.. this has been hard. I think JOEY needs miracle mail.. LOL.
so pray for this job
I am soo tired. I can't even be funny. I am like nodding off. I need some sleep. This hospital chair is like a brick. and obviously they think my butt is 6 inches wide. and folks... it is NOT 6 inches wide.
In the meantime... I might as well spill the beans on our next fundraiser for Aiden's medical fund. We are doing t shirts! pink/cranberry , grey, blue/navy, and white/black
this is the design.. whatcha think.
then he created a banner.. although it won't look like this.. it will have his photos on it. He did that for free, to help at fundraisers. (you know all the free time we have right!)
anyway, we haven't made the order, because as usual it comes with an upfront cost. I thought we would get an idea of some people who might buy them. I know of course I have this vision of all of Aiden's little playmates all decked out in a group photo.I wish he could go to school, because I get misty thinking of him with a classroom of kids rooting him on. And yes today was the first day of school for all of his friends, it stings like acid in my heart that he can't go.
But besides kids, I know it will be my new fave shirt. And just like the cookbooks it will be whatever it is ment to be.. Maybe not the most profitable fundraiser, but I love this shirt.
Ok enough of that...I will update something more insightful and easy to read tomorrow... pray for him to do well tonight. Pray for healing.
Love Lisa
AND THANK YOU TO OUR SWEET FRIENDS AND NEIGHBORS WHO HAVE EITHER POPPED BY, BROUGHT ME A COFFEE, SIGNED THE GUESTBOOK, OR CALLED. I AM NOT IGNORING ANYONE.. JUST BEEN REALLY TIRED.
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August 21, 2008
I was able to escape the prison yesterday for a few hours...yeah...I escaped and left Super Papi behind as a hostage! Every man (woman) for themselves!!! Turns out that the Warrior Princess gang chose to release their hostage after several hours of negotiations and a LONG trip to the park to release the energy in their leader...the Yummylicous Warrior Princess herself..Savannah!
As you can imagine...Savvy is full of energy! Her boogies are dry and she has not vomited since Monday (a nice birthday gift for her Super Papi)..her transplant coordinator asked a lot of questions about the vomiting .. may have to do some testing to make sure it is not a symptom of something other then a "normal" baby thing.
Good News: Savvy is off of Prednisone and Nystatin!!!! 2 meds are off our list!!! Woohooo for the Warrior Princess....assuming her blood work in 2 weeks comes back well she will remain off of them!!! Woohoo!! We may get off of the Pepcid soon but first we have to resolve the vomit thing...but hopefully soon!
I still find it amazing (and probably always will) that just a few short months ago my little girl was fighting for her life...and now due to the amazing Gift of a new liver she is a loving, active, adorable, yummylicious, time-out earning little toddler! I am living my dream...and although I still struggle on a daily basis with the emotions .. the fear... the exhaustion of our journey...I am so very grateful for it...for without it ... We would not have our Warrior Princess!
As per unos.org:
Organ donation saves lives...this will never be a statistic to me...this is 99,286 individuals, mothers, fathers, children who await a second chance...99,286 loved ones....99,286 whose voices have to be heard...organ donors save lives...the lives of 99,286 are depending on it.
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Aiden is back in the hospital
Our sweet Aiden is back in the hospital. He went to the ER because he was vomiting blood. It was hoped that he would be released today but that is not to be the case. Please keep him in your positive thoughts and prayers. 
August 20, 2008
The prisoners have taken over the jail!!!! The Warden has been held captive and the prison guard ran in fear and is trying to break out of the prison by shoveling through to freedom (it will be a slow process since the only shovel available is a plastic one attached to a pail). Someone send assistance (in the form of Super Nanny and the Dog Whisperer..Please!!!)...I was captured this morning and forced to scratch my dogs butt....he would NOT move and will slobber on me if I stop...someone call the National Guard...I am being held prisoner...their leader looks like a cute little toddler but in reality she is the leader of the Warrior Princess gang and they are ruthless if they think their breakfast is slow....she is ruthless and will point at the toaster DEMANDING her waffle....
The prisoners are running the show....send reinforcements please....Super Papi has been taken down and the Warrior Princess is holding him ransom for what I believe is a new tiara and princess stickers....when will this hostage situation be over????????????????
August 19, 2008
The one thing I have learned about hurricanes is that they are unpredictable. I remember my first semester in school in Tampa. We lived in Hollywood, Florida...I commuted to school (4 hours one way)..Friday afternoon I took off from school after class without stopping because Tampa had a Hurricane watch in effect and expected to get hit within 24 hours...I get home and guess what...24 hours later we are hit in Hollywood...the eye of the storm goes through the East coast...we have no power for a week...no water for days...(although due to my paranoia about hurricanes we had plenty of supplies to get through the week). I found the whole thing a bit funny because I took off to avoid the hurricane and I drove into the middle of it!
Yesterday I felt a few drops of rain on my face when I was pumping gas into the car and called Robert ... come home... just stop at Walgreens and pick up pedialyte and ice...the rains have started. Let me tell you after living through a hurricane I have a lot of respect for the destruction the winds can bring and for the sound the horrible sound of the winds circling...so I was ready... tuna, check, soups, check, rice milk, check, medications, check, water, check, batteries, check, chocolate (should be in everyone's hurricane kit) check, bottle of wine, check, birthday cake, check...and I wait for the power to go out and the winds to start...and NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not even rain!! Not a storm...Nada! We avoided the whole darn mess!!!
When we headed to bed we expected to wake up in the middle of the night to rains and wind and again...nada...we woke up to Hurricane Savannah demanding her breakfast and her booty changed....yes...a hurricane did hit our house yesterday but it was in the form of a toddler! A toddler running around the house with a runny nose, pasta sauce on her dress and purple wings on her back!
Savvy is still sick but we are riding it out...she does seem to have a little congestion but not much...she is still full of energy and has no fever...the throwing up part is a mystery that we can not figure out...we have contacted her transplant team wandering if it is a symptom of the reduction of meds or something else...for now..it is not stopping her from doing much...I type while I watch her shaking her shoulders as she is dancing to the music we have playing. Yup...Hurricane Savannah is strong and lurking over Florida!
August 18, 2008 - Happy Birthday Super Papi!!
Happy Birthday Robert....Super Papi started off his day by cleaning up the vomit of his little Warrior Princess and wiping the snot off of her face....You are a Super Papi, an amazing Husband and just a cutie patootie human being! I love you and am proud to be your wife! Besos, Amor y Wov Wov!
August 17, 2008
After a long night yesterday and not being able to sleep through it ... our little Warrior Princess woke up with her runny nose but did not throw up once today! Woohooo for the Warrior Princess!
I wandered about how I could make this birthday for Robert memorable...I mean Savvy saying "Da Da" for the first time last year on his birthday is hard to beat....but it looks like we may be able to make this one memorable too! Looks like we are going to have a party crasher ... she is on the way ... Fay... or Tropical Storm Fay which may be Hurricane Fay by tomorrow is due to stop by the house and wish Super Papi a Happy Birthday tomorrow....Savvy's first Hurricane...hmmm...not sure how I feel about that but knowing my little Warrior Princess she will be giggling through it!
August 16, 2008
Our little Warrior Princess has a runny nose and has thrown up twice this evening...hoping she feels a 1000x's better in the morning!
Guess what her new word is????? Nose...how cute! and Tedo for Cheerios!!! Love it!!!
August 15, 2008
Well...we did not get to play with our cutie boys yesterday....we were 2 minutes down the road and I heard an old too familiar noise from the car seat....so I pulled over to a parking lot and called to cancel our play date....bummer! I know we would have had a great time....so we turned the car around and headed home with my little Warrior Princess sitting in vomit (I did clean her up as much as possible but ... you can only do so much) . I think it was an allergic reaction to something since it looked like (graphic so you may want to skip to the next line)..well it looked like someone squeezed Savvy's stomach and she had to waves of vomit with everything coming out and then she was fine. Since she did not have a fever we just watched her for the rest of the evening and she seems fine now. Savvy's prednisone has been cut down and she is now on it every other day ... she will get labs next week to make sure things are okay (her adrenal system) but I suspect that the lowered prednisone which is a steroid will also lead us to see more allergic reactions...but getting Savvy off of prednisone is amazing news!!!
Okay...so guess who has new shoes that LIGHT up!!! Yup...well they were new until we got vomit on them since we were going to show them off to the boys yesterday...but we still love them!!! Savvy is fascinated by them...she stops to see them light up but then the lights turn off since she is not walking...it is funny to watch.
August 14, 2008
Purple wings with silver glitter...yeah...who can resist them at the store???? Not me, so that is what the Warrior Princess is currently fluttering around the house with ... I had to cut the little bells off ... you know the whole choking hazard thing and all but how cool would it have been to hear her flutter...oh...I can't wait for that! Seriously, not sure if I have ever mentioned it but this little Warrior Princess is so yummylicious!!
Her Super Papi and her have this "Drive By Besos"...yeah she will run by him and get kisses back and forth...way tooooo cute! Then we can not forget her "Jedi Tickle Powers"...yeah....the power to tickle you by just saying, "Tickle Tickle Tickle and moving her fingers"...yeah...she does not even have to touch you..and you know it works cause every time she does it we laugh! Who knew we would have a baby girl with Jedi Tickle Powers?
We are very excited about today for we are going to see "our boys!!" this afternoon... ALL Of them!! Riley, Aiden and Mason!!! Seriously, how many cute blond boys can a heart handle in one day? We are so excited!!!
Savannah continues to do very well health wise! She has a couple of scraped knees ... which clotted IMMEDIATELY! I know I will never cease to love nor take for granted her fabulous liver and her blood clotting!
We got Savvy the cutest little outfit yesterday and it reminded me of Antonio so much...the shirt says "Kiss" and there is a cute little frog on it...just a little reminder that angels are looking over my little Warrior Princess no matter where we are..thank you sweet angels...
Let us never forget those who still wait...for the amazing Gift that we have been blessed with...the Gift of organ donation...
As Per Unos.org:
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St. Vincent De Paul Food Pantry
If you are in the Riverview, Florida area please consider going through your pantry and cleaning it out. The food pantry at St. Stephen's Catholic Church which serves families in our community has seen an amazing increase in need and is struggling to meet the demand. There is a huge need for any any item that a family can eat or use....from diapers to peas. If you have a chance to clean out your pantry tonight or tomorrow please drop me an email at analiz0211@yahoo.com and I will happily pick up your items and deliver them to the pantry on Friday morning or you can take it directly to St. Stephens in Valrico, Florida.
If you know of any stores that have food that gets discarded at the end of the night please consider asking them to donate the food. Perishable foods can be picked up by volunteers and frozen for families to eat...nothing is too little....they are amazing women so when I received a phone call today letting me know how empty the shelves are it breaks my heart.
http://www.ststephencatholic.org/ministries/outreach/outreach.htm
St. Vincent de Paul Society - As the principal person-to-person, charitable hands and heart of our parish, the volunteers of St. Vincent de Paul reach out and respond to those in our area who are in greatest financial need. The St. Vincent de Paul Society is a worldwide movement of parish volunteer groups. Members respond to all who need help and are living within the boundaries of the parish, without regard to race or religious denomination. If someone requests assistance to help pay for rent, mortgage, utilities or food, this society responds to their needs. All work is strictly confidential and does include a home visitation.
This group meets monthly. Food is collected at our church throughout the year. Baskets are located in the east and west entrances. In addition, the Thanksgiving collection is earmarked for St. Vincent de Paul. We open our Food Pantry every Friday from 11:30 am to 1:30 pm to help those in need.
St. Vincent de Paul Society Ministry Contact: Camille Riggings 689-4900
Food Pantry Ministry Contact: Graciela Langan 689-4900
Savvy with our prima Janid at Congressman Van Hollen's office
This is our hard working Prima Janid who has championed Savannah's COTA campaign since day 1!
August 12, 2008
I hope you like the pictures I uploaded last night...it is getting harder and harder to get pictures of Savvy sitting still ...most pictures are blurry lately since she is always active...that is a good thing! She started her day a little rough...we had to pop her in the bath since the "poopy monster" visited last night ... well.. she started her morning by throwing up her meds. Bummer! She seems to be doing a lot better (as I am listening to her in the monitor trying to avoid her nap..). After nap time we are going to visit Super Papi at work...after we go and feed the ducks by his office!
Yesterday she had an amazing afternoon for we went to Busch Gardens! Oh..speaking of Busch Gardens...did you know that they give free beer out at the hospitality center???? Were we the only ones that did not know this? As you may have gathered ... we discovered this interesting tidbit yesterday... the only bummer was that I was NOT carded...boohooo....ego bruised...okay I am over it.
We had an awesome time visiting the "Eee Eees" but Savvy's favorite was this dance contest they were holding...yeah...my little princesa was shaking the bootie like no other!!!! She was LITERALLY shaking the stroller so I had to take her out to show off her dancing moves!! Okay....I could not resist but share some of the video I took of the dancing princesa yesterday ... she is hot and sweaty...food all over her face and yet absolutely magically adorable!... Funny thing is that her doctor at CHOP asked us yesterday if she had some symptoms and one was lethargy...well...we can answer a comfortable "no" on the lethargy question... I tell you she always brings a smile to my heart!
See Dancing Warrior Princess online.
Aiden and Savvy
Aiden...oh...this kiddo is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please continue to pray for him...he has had a very rough time...he told his mom the other night that he never asked to be sick...he is right...he never asked for this...he does not deserve this!....I believe in the power of prayer and positive thoughts...please continue them for our Sweet Aiden!
Savvy and Her "Mack Daddy" Mason
Had to share the picture of Savvy with Aiden's cutie brother, Mason...yeah...little "Mack Daddy" Mason...taking Savvy in her first jeep ride. Seriously, these two were just way too cute!
Wearing our "magical" wings
My grumpy little Warrior was transformed into a little diva princesa when the "magical" wings went on...
A girl can never have enough purses!
She is starting very young with her purse collection! She would not sit still long enough to get "the" picture...but I love it blurry and all since she was running over to give me a beso! And there is nothing Mami loves more then her Savvy kisses!
August 11, 2008
Wings! Pink pretty little wings...yes this is the perfect item to go with her little headband crown! Robert had a networking thing last night and when he left Savvy was a little grumpy. We had gone for a walk and I put her in her crib for some quiet time really thinking she would take a second nap since she was rubbing her eyes but nope not my little Warrior! She knew there was something "off" with this second nap thing and was not going to go for it...so my grumpy little princesa said "wov wov" to Super Papi as he said, "Good Luck" to Mami and headed off!
When Robert came home he asked if our little princesa stayed grumpy and when I explained the "Secret Weapon" he felt it was an unfair parenting advantage to cure grumpiness with Wings! Oh well...guess you simply need to be a Mami to know about wing magic!
My little grumpy princesa was whining until the magical wings, crown...and YES a pink Boa came out of the package...with magical pink slippers...as soon as my little princesa saw the Boa...she stood in front of me and smiled (I so wish I would have gotten Robert to download the pictures before he headed off to work...I just had to take a picture to try to capture the magic)...ready to be dolled up like a princesa should be! For certainly her silly little tank top and skirt were not appropriate attire for a Warrior Princess! Oh my goodness, we do not know where this little Diva thing came from but it is so incredibly cute! So Savvy went from Grumpy Warrior to Diva Princesa with the placement of magical wings!
Wishing each one of you finds your pair of magical wings!
August 10, 2008
I had the most magical moment EVER the other night....I will never forget but I thought I would write about it in case my little Warrior Princess ever grows up to read my journals...I just wanted to let you know Savannah...You are Magical..We know it!
My little princesa was getting ready to go "night night" and she looks at me as I was holding her on the rocking chair .. she smiles and puts her little nose against mine and rubs it ever so gently and giggles...this went on for a few minutes but oh I will treasure it for a lifetime!
We have good news to share...our GI's office called on Friday to let us know that her labs came back good! Her prograf levels went down significantly and although it is not exactly where we want it ... but getting there! We are cutting her steroid in half again this week!!! That is great news!!! We hope that by the end of the year she will be completely OFF of her steroid which will in turn get rid of other medications that are given to her to prevent some of the side effects of the steroids....It is just amazing to think that in a few months my baby girl may be down to 1 medication!!! 1 medication for the rest of her life is a better then the alternatives so I am soooooo looking forward to this!!!! Woohooo for the Warrior Princess!
As I am typing Savannah is just so darn cute that I have to share....she has eaten her breakfast (oh....we are very serious about this!) and now she is walking around gathering her bracelets and placing them on her wrists...I guess we simply can not start our day without the proper accessories! This is just such a yummylicious little age....so grateful to God for letting us enjoy it!
August 9, 2008
Happy Birthday Sweet Andrew! We love you very much...you are an amazing little boy...I mean Big Boy!!!! La Bendicion Mi Amor. Tio Robert, Tia Ana and Prima Savannah.
August 7, 2008
Seriously, when you have to take 3 purses off your daughter and leave her with only one bracelet just so she can eat her waffles (not blueberry Sarah...) is she becoming to much of a Diva?
She is yapping up a storm right now as I am typing and while I am simultaneously trying to kick her Super Papi's tush on "Literati"...yup a new word game online that we are addicted too...."we" are addicted because it seems to be the only game in 15 years that Robert can consistently win...ERRRRRRRRR!
Now...my little steroid girl is lifting a pink stuffed pig that is half of her size and weighs a bit...she has this pig over her head ... her new favorite game...Doggie stands behind the gate...super strength steroid girl (I now understand why steroids are illegal for professional athletes...UNFAIR advantage!!) lifts pig over her head and tosses it to doggie...Mami gets pig from doggies mouth while he shakes it ... Savvy laughs while doggie shakes it...and both lose privilege to the pig....then they both get mad because I have disrupted the coolest game on earth!
Savvy is doing really well....we are waiting to hear back about her blood work but we should hear today or tomorrow latest...we head back to CHOP next month...it is surreal...I have to say that not being in a hospital for a while feels pretty nice. The last time we were there was in the ER and we got to go home after about 8 hours or so....not bad...on the other hand...one never gets tired at looking at the faces of those who saved your daughter's life!
Can you guess how many?
So how many purses can a Warrior Princess walk around all day with? 1, 2, 3? In Savannah's case it would be 5 and several makeshift bracelets as well...yeah she uses anything that is round and plastic as an accessory as well! I tried to take a picture cause frankly she just so darn adorable but Savvy just kept trying to kiss the camera...What a Diva!
August 6, 2008
She is an amazing little girl! Have I ever mentioned this? Robert mentions this morning how Savvy has to know that she is going in for labs at this point since we follow the same ritual of getting in the car with no breakfast in our belly...and yet she walks in to the center with no fear! Yeah...walks into the center...this is still a bit overwhelming for me...I remember looking at the toys on the wall that the "older" kids played with and so wanting Savvy to be able to be distracted by them...well...guess what? She is! We are also very lucky for Nurse Julie has cared for Savvy since she was 4 months old so Savvy knows her and follows her to the room.. Julie has stickers ready for her...Today we got Dora for during the lab and Princess stickers for after the labs.
Savvy did not shed a tear although she did pull her arm away this time when the needle went in but luckily she found her vein after only fishing a little bit and did not have to repoke. She is just an amazing little girl who waves "bye bye" now to our fave lab nurse as she walks out.
Hopefully, her labs will be great this time around ... holding my breath a bit since her immuno suppressant medication and her steroid have been reduced. You can see the effects of the medication reduction on her face...her cheeks are not as plump as usual (although most probably would not notice because they are still yummy and chubby) and her eyes have had dark circles under them recently.
Okay...so there are all of these things that I laugh at when I read posts of other "liver mommies" (yes....I also cry a lot) and I just had to share one today because as horrible as liver disease is there are just a lot of humorous points with it as well....I thought of Sam this morning...Bethany's mum cause as we left our blood draw with our fab nurse Julie I thought of our fab Dr. Julie and how cool it would be to drop in and say Hi! (Okay...we did not since she is a busy doctor with more then Savvy as her patient and yes we are aware that Savvy does not need to be exposed to sick kids...blah blah blah) but I thought of Sam cause it dawned on me that most moms probably do not have an urge to visit their pediatrician just to say, "Hi". So I thought...you know you are a "liver mom" when.....you want to stop by your pediatrician's office for a "social" visit. So that is when I thought of Sam....Sam whose little princess is in the hospital right now. Sam who is facing the challenges of the horrible ups and downs of liver disease...Sam who used an oxygen mask as a headband because her daughter's hair was getting in her eyes. ...Yup...she is such a "Liver Mom!"
| Please keep Bethany in your prayers...and her amazing "liver mom" Sam! |

I Am...Are You?
Donor Angel
I never met you and yet you are with me.
I never held you and yet I hold and kiss you daily.
Our donor angel....I cherish you...I love you.
August 4, 2008
Oh my goodness as I type I just realized that we are in August...when did this happen? Okay... I know 4 days ago...funny funny...but seriously, Robert's birthday is right around the corner.....hmmm....but how do you top last year? I mean last year he turned 40 and Savvy said, "Da Da" for the first time on that day (and has not stop saying it a day since!)...hmmmm......
Well, I actually logged on to share my moment of PERFECT Bliss today! We spent the morning weeding our yard and pruning ... our little Warrior Princess was playing in her water cart with her toys and splashing away....a nice morning with the family but after we head inside and bathe our little princesa we laid on our bed...yeah...all three of us with our heads on our pillow and Savvy caressing our faces with her little arm! I realize that Heaven feels exactly like that....I was feeling Heaven on earth...a perfect moment of Bliss....
Now it was just a moment for after she finished her rice milk and I put her in her crib for a nap she started to scream for about 5 minutes which seemed more like an hour....but when it is preceded by a PERFECT moment...no amount of toddler temper tantrum can cause one to fret.
Our little Warrior Princess is doing great...she is in her high chair eating her chili and pasta .... She LOVES pasta...she picks out most of the beans from it but every once in a while one will make it in her mouth and that makes me happy. We are waiting for Super Papi to come home from work and then we are off on an adventure this evening....(actually going to go buy dog food but it is always an adventure when I put the Warrior Princess and Super Papi together!)
Wishing you all a true moment of Bliss!
August 3, 2008
This morning my baby was throwing up her medicines...this evening she is playing tag with her Super Papi and giggling...I mean Cackling when she tags her Papi! Of course, she is decked in her beads for no Warrior Princess would play tag without properly accessorizing!
She is just so darn adorable and we are so darn blessed!
August 2, 2008
So today I walked into my job EXHAUSTED....Robert and I were up all night with Savvy. She had a hard time sleeping and would wake up crying...sobbing...not sure why. I gave my notice...I will leave when they are able to replace me...I explained and had to hold my tears back that I had not slept...my daughter was not feeling well and I could get no one to come in for me...I am certain in my head that she was fine..probably a teething thing but in my heart...in my heart and soul I just panic. I go right back to holding my dying baby and watching her fight for her life...
I have an incredibly kind boss...I have only work for them a short amount of time and he tells me that it is okay...he understands and he will respect any decision I make although he does not want me to leave...my daughter is priority and if I have to take time off ... no problem...he found someone to work for me. Savannah continued to have a tough time and Robert was frazzled (remember he is not running on sleep either). So, I take over and put her down for a nap...the whole family takes a nap. Everyone wakes up a few hours later hungry but doing better and we head off to visit with our Sweet Aiden.
It was so cute to hear Aiden yell .. "Savvy is here" when he saw our car...he is simply so precious! Thing is that his normally pretty quiet little brother was the little mack Daddy today...yep...Riley...watch out! Mason took Savvy on a "date"..yup drove her in his jeep (very slowly and cautiously) to their date...the swing set and they both played in the club house ... they were so adorably cute together!!!
So as Robert chaperone's Savvy's first date Lisa tells me that she thought of me a great deal when she wrote her journal today...I check her journal daily but had not read today's....so as I lay in bed with my amazing husband I check Aiden's page...and I wanted to yell "You are NOT spoiling your baby Sweetie...You are LOVING your child the best way you can!!!" I could feel the pain in her words...I can feel the love as well....funny thing is that when we were at Lisa's house Savvy walked around with her bottle...Yeah...her bottle. She can use sippy cups and knows how to drink from a straw but I still give her a bottle of water to drink from in the car...I still give her a bottle knowing that she is "too old" for it and I remember thinking ... Lisa is going to mention to me that she is too old...and yet my dear friend never said a word about Savvy's bottle..she did tell me that I would probably re-post her blog...well..she was right...
Aiden's Page!
Playing Thomas always makes a boo boo better.
Ten minutes into the recovery room, Aiden asks for his crayons. Not one tear after surgery. Aiden was just smiles for the camera and using his baby voice to charm his nurses.
Journal
Saturday, August 2, 2008 1:18 PM CDT
Just finished reading a book. You know where that leads! Uh oh warning..deep thoughts ahead.
It had incredible gems in the book, especially for moms of children who have chronic illness.
One part of the book just spoke for what I feel ... gave me a voice on something that has been bothering me. (As a background little Hannah is diagnosed with a rare cancer, and has been in and out of the hospital for months. In the hospital she has her "way" of doing things...)
Hannah's Gift:
"Nope it's not right," she said, handing it back to me.
I couldn't believe it. I had been doing it at her request, the same way for days; apple juice in the red cup, milk in the green, Pepsi in the yellow, and water in the blue.
"It's not right," she repeated, looking evenly at me.
"Which one isn't right?" I asked.
"All of them," she said.
I wanted to throw the whole lot against the wall. I breathed slowly and counted to ten. Usually, it was my greatest joy to let Hannah decide what beverage she wanted in each cup. While some people seemed concerned I might be spoiling her, I didn't agree. I saw it as a way to preserve some sense of Hannah's dignity. So many things were literally being forced down her throat, she needed to have control over something.
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Recently the hour before Aiden's surgery, (you know the one I said went off without a hitch?) This is what 'off without a hitch' REALLY looks like.
Aiden was getting an IV placed. He hates the freezy spray. Hates it. He thinks it is too cold and says it burns. He wanted the EMLA cream. (numbing cream) I told his nurse to give him EMLA and she said, "It would take too long"... I then mouthed to her, "JUST DO IT. It is what he wants!" She looked confused, and said out loud, "But it won't numb the area.". finally Joey said, "It is part of his routine. It is mostly a mind thing." I guess she didn't really care because the IV team came in with the freezy spray. I told the IV team.. "Use the Left AC. It is his only good vein for IV." She immediately ignores me and looks at his hands.
Aiden screams and screams... "NO HANDS!!" The IV nurse ignored me, ignored HIM, and says, "Hunny I don't want to have to stick you twice. Let me look." Aiden pulls back his arms flailing and screaming. He points to his left AC and says, "HERE IS MY ONLY GOOD VEIN!" Joey and I are standing by. I can't watch him fight this fight alone..finally I Stand up.. I grab his arm, and show the nurse. She claims she can't see it. I then say, "It is as big as a straw! I can hit it with my eyes closed! Just feel for the scar tissue." Still she says it doesn't matter how well *I* can see it.. if she can't see it, it is no good.
Aiden screams and bucks on the bed, I am now looking at the other nurse and say to her.. It is RIGHT THERE! Reluctantly they go back to his left arm and she sees what I mean. Aiden seems relieved but asks for his EMLA cream. Already they IV nurse is annoyed. "The freezy spray will be fine. The EMLA won't work it takes too long." Aiden is turning bright red and is now being held by 4 adults. He is kicking and and screaming, choking on his tears. The IV Nurse says, "DAD! Get over here and hold his hand he is trying to get the needle from my hand" Joey runs to the other side of the bed and holds Aiden's hand still while he screams and cries.
He wants his cream. He wants the tourniquet ON the shirt NOT on his skin. He wants you to use a certain tape. DO NOT put it on his skin. He is screaming his demands, and I just keep chanting.. "Aiden it is your last IV for a long time. It is almost over baby. It is almost over."
When it is all said and done.. the less the stelar nurse feels so victorious she has made it through all of this. (poor her right?) She placed the IV in the huge fat vein that I told her to, and she taped him all up incorrectly. After all of that, she says something like, "WOW he is a strong one." I look at Joey and I say, "Thank God he has this fight in him. I am so proud of him for not giving up his fight."
What should I do? What would have been what that nurse was thinking I should do? Should I yell at Aiden to lay still? Should I tell him to not boss the adults around? Should I tell him, to take it? Would I just take it? What does it feel like to be a small child being held by 4 adults? What does it feel like when screaming and begging to stop NEVER ever works? Does it feel like those terrible nightmares I have where I can't scream? Where I can't run?
SO I buy him a puppy. We take what little money we don't have. What little tiny money we should be using for other things and buy a puppy. DO you think Aiden is spoiled? Do people really think the little boy who lays screaming while held down is spoiled? I don't care. I really don't care.
Life isn't fair. It isn't equal for him. It isn't. It isn't the same for him as other children. It never will be. He will never get it back. If this all stopped now and he was perfect forever, this will have been more in one lifetime than most of us ever had.
To Joey and I, a puppy isn't spoiling him...I call it a little piece of dignity.
Last night I finished my new book in the quiet of my bedroom. When done, I went to the living room where everyone was settling down for bedtime. Aiden and Mason and Rolex and I crawled under a blanket/fort with a big bowl of popcorn. I could hear Joey in the kitchen doing the dishes. Mason had his chapstick in one hand, and his Barbie watch on the other while Aiden had popcorn falling from his mouth cause the laughs were just too big to keep it in. We sat under that blanket telling secrets and talking about silly things.
I remember the days when I used to judge other parents who let their kids crawl into their beds. I had this one friend around the time of transplant that HAD to lay down with her child to get him to sleep. I used to think, wow.. just tuck him in, kiss him on his head and say night night. He is just spoiled.
Now today, I am a different woman. A different mother. I think of the term spoiled and I feel the dichotomy of the term. Love and spoilage. I don't understand the fuzzy lines of the word. My little boys falling asleep in my bed, is that spoilage or love? Is me playing the claw game at Walmart, till I win that ugly toy, spoilage or love? Is all the attention we give our children day after day or night after night, spoilage or love? Why so many rules and opinions on parenting? Why does it matter?
Last night after all the silliness was done, the popcorn and chapstick under the Spongebob blanket. Joey and I tucked the boys into bed. We tickled their hair and rubbed their backs. We waited till they were asleep before we left the room. It is just love. A little piece of dignity that Joey and I got to take back when they told us that they weren't healthy.
A puppy. A little puppy, that YES costs a little money, a piece of dignity for a little boy that gets his dignity taken from him every morning and night he has to stop playing to take 14 medicines.
I am thankful for other moms putting thier feelings onto print in a book. I am horrified that the little Hannah in the book died tragically before she could ever turn 4. More horrified that it was a true story. I know that I am not a famous author, nor do I have all the answers. But if there is a Mom new to this, and she is feeling guilty because she rocks her baby a little longer than the books say to do. Or she wants to get a puppy for her child when so many people say, "But life is so hectic for you! Don't do it!" I say, do it. It isn't spoilage young Lisa. It isn't breaking rules. Rules don't apply anymore. The rules were thrown out when they told us our babies could die.
Yes, I know, look what you all stumbled into here. It is another update full of deep thoughts. That is why you love coming here. You get to see the cavernous hole of my mind at work. (echo echooo echoooooooo) But this is how it is sometimes. Sometimes when things are good like now,(and Aiden is good!) I get to reflect. I get to think about all that has been occurring. And now I have only one feeling...
I can't wait ... one more week till 'Biscuit N'Gravy Hawk' comes in to chew IV lines, make messes, and bring more laughter into our home! I just can't wait!
I promise photos to come!
Taking a break from reading books,
Lisa
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28-30
August 1, 2008
What an amazing honor to be the Mami of Savannah. I was driving to church this morning and thinking to myself about how God has always given us a window. We have had so many doors shut on us...so many things that went wrong and yet we have been blessed with something different in return. It may not have been what we were originally looking for but a blessing none the less.
So as I am driving I am thinking about some of the stressors that we are currently facing and I had to smile and tell myself...THANK GOD for them! How I prayed so hard for them! I prayed and prayed and asked for God to spare Savannah's life. That was all I prayed for....I would give my last breath in a HEART beat for this little Warrior Princess. As Lisa told Aiden last year when he asked why God had not given Savannah her liver...sometimes God answers..No...sometimes God answers...Yes...and sometimes we simply have to wait for the answer. My prayers were answered...so as I thought about my silly stressors I again Thank God for them...for I am so GRATEFUL to have them...so GRATEFUL to have to make an appointment for blood draws next week...so GRATEFUL that I had to put my daughter in Time Out several times today...so GRATEFUL for everything that I have ... so very GRATEFUL!